Always Hoping, Praying, Wishing...

November 26, 2008

Ok, so I'm going to write out my journey. I have found so much support from each and every story and comment I've read on this site...so I think it's time to share my story.

My husband and I have been married for 1 year, and have been together for 5. He is my soul mate, my best friend, and my one true love. I know this because I've traveled a looooong road of unhappiness and was married to a man that, although is a great person, ended up being true to himself and admitting he was gay. I don't regret a single moment of life, because if I hadn't married him and moved to Savannah, GA...I would've never met my real soul mate. Everything happens for a reason.

So here we are in the 15th month of ttc. There is a history of unexplained infertility in my family, which in turn has brought me the beautiful blessings of many adopted cousins who I cherish. I know that so many children are a part of our world waiting for the love that we all have in our hearts, and I know that being a mother can mean many different things. I'm open to them all.

I was on bc pills for 12 years, but have been off them for 2 and we have not been using any consistent form of bc in that time. I get positive OPKs around day 13 of my cylces and get AF regularly on about day 27. At this current point, I have had all bloodwork, HSG, and ultra sound tests come back great. My DH s/a is fine. We use OPKs, I chart every little thing (every twinge, every change, every mood swing..haha), and we think every month....this has GOT TO BE IT! But alas...

So after two BFNs for this month, I am picking myself up once more, and preparing for my first round of Clomid. I'm ready, willing, and able to try some new things too (gonna check out this veggie oil thing...) and once again hoping, praying, and wishing for a baby blessing.

November 26, 2008

Jeeeeezzz what a surprise that must have been when ur ex announced he was gay! that must have hurt. But like you said everything happens for a reason and now u are with ur true soul mate so every cloud truly does have a silver lining :)

Sorry bout ur bfn's hun but hang on in there, some women dont get a +hpt until they miss a period so its not over yet.

If you really arent not pregnant this month then i wish u the best of luck with the clomid..ur time will come .

***Babydust***

November 26, 2008

thanks Natasha :)

yes...a surprise about the ex, but in all honesty, it was almost a relief because I think somewhere in the very back of my mind I knew things weren't right for a very long time. I just didn't quite know what the "issue" was. I spent so much time being unhappy, so it was like the world opened up for me in a weird way.

November 30, 2008

Hi Rach. I'm new to this site too and am lovin it so far. There is so much support on it. I took Clomid for the first time this month for un-explained fertility. I'm now in the 2WW. I didn't seem to have any side effects. Let me know if you have any questions and welcome to the site. Your BFP is coming girl!

December 01, 2008

your BFP is coming too Amanda! I'm taking Clomid for the first time today!!! And I'm on cd5 and ready to get this new cylce going....so let's stick together and bring out as much positive energy as we can :) I'll be thinking of you....

December 01, 2008

Hi Rach,

Just read your journey. It is amazing how things in life fall into place and are meant to be. Sounds like your current hubby is a wonderful man.

While I've never been on clomid, I hope that it helps you while ttc. I hope that you get a BFP soon :) Looking forward to following your journey. All my best to you.

December 01, 2008

I'm thinking of you too! Keep me updated and I'll do the same. It's so nice to find people that are going through similar experiences.

I'm 5-6 DPO and waiting around for BFP. It will be worth the wait this month, I hope! My DH and I are also always convinced every month that this has got to be it! We are thinking the same thing this month! And it will be!

Baby dust and stay strong. Just think of it as being only days away from concieving! Very exciting.

December 01, 2008

Hi Rach, read your thread, had to post. I am taking Clomid 100 mg for they first time today too!! CD 5-9 for me and I will be doing IUI. Good Luck to you.

December 02, 2008

Amy-thank you for your thoughts. :)

Rae-yay for a first time Clomid buddy! we are on the same cd. let's keep eachother posted. :)

and to everyone...baby dust, positive vibes, and baby blessings to all. :)

December 03, 2008

My Gramma and Aunt live in Holly Springs. I don't know if you're in the same area of NC, but it's a beautiful place!

December 04, 2008

Rach. How are you? Where are you at in your cycle? Sending you baby dust!

December 04, 2008

Good luck this cycle with clomid! baby dust!

December 04, 2008

Amanda...I'm in Charlotte...and so I'm not sure if Holly Springs is close, but NC is quite a pretty state...you are right about that! :)

Faith...good to see you! I miss being in our 2ww from last month! I'm on cd8 and day 4 of Clomid. Getting "reved" up for the BD days coming up!

Fran...I just smile everytime I see your profile pic with that Steelers jersey. Makes me feel like a bit of home is close by :)

December 04, 2008

I just watched a preview for the new Marley & Me movie and cried and laughed and cried and laughed. I'm a weirdo! That's gotta be a symptom of the clomid....right????

December 04, 2008

Hey Rach...I just saw this last comment you left...but about the moive...doesn't that seem like it will be halarious?? haha I know off topic, sorry, I just watched the trailer and was laughing sooo hard :)

December 04, 2008

I agree April. I think it's gonna be a great movie. I read the book and it was FABULOUS!

December 12, 2008

ok ladies....cd16 and o-ing today. what are you up to Faith, Rae, Amanda????

December 12, 2008

Woo hooo big O! You are 15 days ahead of me now. I'm CD 1 today. AF showed her face a little yesterday and today she is full on here. Had a really sad day yesterday and still feel really down today.

December 12, 2008

stupid AF! I know exactly how that feels, and it sucks. And then I find some way to think about the possibilites ahead for the next cycle...and keep on truckin'. You can do it Amanda. And know that I am thinking of you and feeling for you and sending you as many hugs as I can through this website. Boo-hiss to your AF but keep on believing.

December 12, 2008

BD away!!! good luck and baby dust by the bucketful!

December 12, 2008

Thanks Rach. I'm actually feeling a bit better tonight and thinking ahead to getting prego this month. I'm truckin!

Bed away!Here is to a September baby! BABY DUST. You deserve it!

December 12, 2008

1DPIUI for me. All I have to say is this is going to be a lonnnnnnngggggg wait!!! I know you all understand that. Glad to have work, baking, wrapping, and some get togethers with friends to keep me busy!!! HUGS to you. and of course my usual LOADS OF BABYDUST!!!

December 15, 2008

Rach- Hello! I am 8dpo today and i started spotting/discharge brown yesterday and today with some cramping no breast pain though, i am worried af is on her way.. dont know what to think.

How are you and where are you in your cycle?

December 16, 2008

Faith....what day does AF typically come? Don't loose hope tho...I try to always "wish" it AF away. ha.

I'm 4dpo. no real symptoms to speak of. the clomid cramping has stopped, which is good. I go to dr tomorrow for my day 21 bloodwork.

December 16, 2008

Rach- Thanks my cd are anywhere from 27-33 days so this month i O later than ever before (cd 17) and now i am have been spotting since 2 days ago and according to mymonthlycycles.com my period is due tomorrow... but i am only 9dpo.. i just dont know what to think. Any advice?

4DPO you are moving right along, yay!! I really hope you get your BFP!!

December 19, 2008

Faith...I've been out of town. What's the news???? I've been thinking of you and praying for no AF.

I'm 7dpo today and thinking of testing on Christmas eve which would be 12dpo. Am I crazy? Is that too early and too much of a holiday stressor? Talk to me girl...I miss you...
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