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AmandaP
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AF Arriving Today. One Round Of Clomid Down
December 11, 2008
I believe AF is starting her arrival today. Got a little glimpse of her in the morning and she made me temps go down this morning. Today is 15 DPO. I had AF cramps from 5 DPO. I had them every other day from 5DPO. I thought for sure that they were implantation cramps or pg cramps. This month is going to be very hard. I mc in July and my baby's due daye was in January. I don't know how I'm going to get through this. I really want to just give up. It's really not fair that everyone else can get og and not me. Anyone else feel like this. I'm really depressed today. It feels like another miscarriage every time that AF arrives.
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Oh Amanda I am so sorry hun! I know it is hard and sometimes this journey is so damn unfair. Try to think about the future when you are pregnant and then give birth. You will most definitely think that although hard at times it was so worth it. Try to stay positive and I will pray that next month is your month. Don't give up becaus what if that BFP would have been the month you decided to quit. Keep at it hun and it will happen.
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Sorry Amanda! The M/C due date thing can be hard. I had a M/C in Apr and my due date was 11/28/08, and I keep thinking about how I would've just had that baby, it would've been here for xmas, etc. Now I'm wallowing in the fact that xmas is almost here, and not only do I not have a baby, I'm not even preggo :( Sorry didn't mean to whine about myself so much, I'm just telling you that I understand how you're feeling. Some months are harder than others.
I'm taking so many drugs these days! I never thought it would come to this cuz I got preggo on my 1st round of femara only (which was Feb 08). So, I'm taking: Femara, Gonal-F, Metformin, and Ovidrel, plus vitamins = Folcaps & Prenatals. I’m having my 3rd IUI probably early next week (having u/s & b/w tomorrow). I also had a chemical preg last month. I met w/ new RE and I’ll do IVF w/ him if this IUI doesn’t work.
So I assume that you’ll start another cycle of clomid? Is your doctor monitoring you via u/s? I hope you feel better soon—these BFNs every month are brutal!! It’s especially hard when you’ve started a new drug & you’re extra hopeful.
So I assume that you’ll start another cycle of clomid? Is your doctor monitoring you via u/s? I hope you feel better soon—these BFNs every month are brutal!! It’s especially hard when you’ve started a new drug & you’re extra hopeful.
After M/C, I did 3 more femara cycles, and 1 cycle of femara + gonal-f, before moving to IUI (the only reason I did the injection cycle w/o IUI is cuz my DH didn't want to do IUI).
Before any of that, I did 5-6 rounds of clomid w/ my OBGYN. During the last cycle my dr did some b/w & and it was clear that the clomid wasn't working and she referred me to an RE. I wish I would've know that sooner. So, I would suggest that you ask your OBGYN to monitor your clomid cycles--he can give you an u/s and see how many follicles you have & a trigger shot to make sure you ovulate. This was your 1st cycle w/ clomid, right? You'd have to ask you doc about IUI, but I would guess that he'll want you to do at least 3 cycles of clomid first.
Before any of that, I did 5-6 rounds of clomid w/ my OBGYN. During the last cycle my dr did some b/w & and it was clear that the clomid wasn't working and she referred me to an RE. I wish I would've know that sooner. So, I would suggest that you ask your OBGYN to monitor your clomid cycles--he can give you an u/s and see how many follicles you have & a trigger shot to make sure you ovulate. This was your 1st cycle w/ clomid, right? You'd have to ask you doc about IUI, but I would guess that he'll want you to do at least 3 cycles of clomid first.
I know I ovulate because of OPK's. Get a very strong reading. And my face always breaks out after O from all the prog. My Dr. put me on it for un-explained infertility. We tried for 4 months naturally after MC and then started Clomid. It took me 8 months to get pg before. Then had mc. I feel like it has been forever. I still want to be monitored on Clomid to see how many follicles I'm producing. When are u supposed to go in for US? Afer LH surge?
Good luck on this cycle! What CD are you on?
Good luck on this cycle! What CD are you on?
It's good that you know that you ovulate, and the fact that you've been pregnant means that you're fertile (which my RE says is more than half the battle). You'll probably do really well on clomid. It sounds like you just need a little boost to speed things up. Has your DH had an S/A done?
When I was doing femara only, I would get an U/S (prescan) on CD1, 2, or 3 to get cleared to start the meds, then I'd go back on CD14 for a follicle scan, b/w, and trigger shot. A monitored clomid cycle would work the same way.
I'm on CD10 & had an u/s this morning. Looks like I've got 4 follicles that will be mature in the next couple days. I'm having an u/s on Sunday morning to confirm. If the follicles are ready to go, then I'll do the trigger shot on Sunday night & have the IUI on Tuesday.
Have you started the next round clomid yet?
When I was doing femara only, I would get an U/S (prescan) on CD1, 2, or 3 to get cleared to start the meds, then I'd go back on CD14 for a follicle scan, b/w, and trigger shot. A monitored clomid cycle would work the same way.
I'm on CD10 & had an u/s this morning. Looks like I've got 4 follicles that will be mature in the next couple days. I'm having an u/s on Sunday morning to confirm. If the follicles are ready to go, then I'll do the trigger shot on Sunday night & have the IUI on Tuesday.
Have you started the next round clomid yet?
Thanks for all the info Kristi. You are so sweet. You're going to be such a sweet mama!
Good luck with IUI this month. You are so close to making it happen. O time always makes me happy and gives me hope. 4 follicles is great! I can't wait to find out how many I'm going to have!
That makes me feel better that your RE said that!I hope I am fertile. My DH had great SA results. Everything was normal. Count was great. Above the average number they gave us. Everything was in the normal range. I don't know what the problem is? I have a Dr. appt on Tuesday and am going to ask to be monitored.
I'm starting Clomid on Sunday. Which is CD3. I did 5-9 last month and my cycle was 33 days. It has never been that long. I'm hoping the 3-7 days will make it shorter. The Dr. told me I could do either. How many mg are you on? I'm on 50mg.
Good luck with IUI this month. You are so close to making it happen. O time always makes me happy and gives me hope. 4 follicles is great! I can't wait to find out how many I'm going to have!
That makes me feel better that your RE said that!I hope I am fertile. My DH had great SA results. Everything was normal. Count was great. Above the average number they gave us. Everything was in the normal range. I don't know what the problem is? I have a Dr. appt on Tuesday and am going to ask to be monitored.
I'm starting Clomid on Sunday. Which is CD3. I did 5-9 last month and my cycle was 33 days. It has never been that long. I'm hoping the 3-7 days will make it shorter. The Dr. told me I could do either. How many mg are you on? I'm on 50mg.
Aww thanks Amanda, you're going to be a great mommy too :)
From what you said, you & your DH sound very healthy and you have every reason to be hopeful for a bfp this cycle. I think they say that most people don't get preggo on the first clomid cycle and it usually takes few a tries, so I'll bet that you'll get a bfp within the next 2-3 months or sooner.
I take femara 5mg on CD3-7, and gonal-f on CD7-12 (this varies based on how fast the follies mature).
I'm trying to relax & be positive--I swear it makes a difference. On my 1st femara cycle, I was so excited and I just knew it would work, and it did (but had a m/c at 8 weeks). Since that happened I haven't been able to bring back the same enthusiasum, but I'm trying. Also, in 'How to Get Pregnant' that dr talks about the relationship between your emotions & conception and it's seems to be real. Among other things, he said that those who were overly anxious didn't conceive at the rate the more relaxed patients did. Easier said than done, but definitely worth a try, right?
From what you said, you & your DH sound very healthy and you have every reason to be hopeful for a bfp this cycle. I think they say that most people don't get preggo on the first clomid cycle and it usually takes few a tries, so I'll bet that you'll get a bfp within the next 2-3 months or sooner.
I take femara 5mg on CD3-7, and gonal-f on CD7-12 (this varies based on how fast the follies mature).
I'm trying to relax & be positive--I swear it makes a difference. On my 1st femara cycle, I was so excited and I just knew it would work, and it did (but had a m/c at 8 weeks). Since that happened I haven't been able to bring back the same enthusiasum, but I'm trying. Also, in 'How to Get Pregnant' that dr talks about the relationship between your emotions & conception and it's seems to be real. Among other things, he said that those who were overly anxious didn't conceive at the rate the more relaxed patients did. Easier said than done, but definitely worth a try, right?
I don't know how not to be anxious. Isn't it really hard for you not to be anxious after a miscarriage? While I'm on the anxious subject, I am on edge and guarded all the time from things that upset me. I feel like I can't watch anything on tv because there's always a baby or pregnant woman on. I can't go out to eat or go shopping witout getting upset because of the same thing. I've gotten really emotional around the in-laws about these things and they still make comments all the time about families, kids, pregnant people. My sister-in-law sent some weird chain email to by DH about elves giving birth. WTF. I feel like I'm being tortured. Does anyone else feel like really guarded. I would love to just stay in the house and watch the food network, cook and tune out the world. The only one that understands what upsets me is my DH.
Yes, I totally get it! You've just described how I act & feel. My DH's bro & his wife started TTC at about the same time as us. They now have 2 babies (a 1 yr old & a 2 month old). This just gets to me more than I can even express. When the 1st one was born, we went to the hospital & I could hardly hold back my tears (NOT tears of joy obviously) and I remember thinking that I couldn't believe she had already given birth and I wasn't even pregnant yet. While she was preg w/ the 2nd one, I had a m/c, and then another m/c right after he was born. I often feel like skipping out on family functions cuz everything revolves around ‘the boys’ now. And it not just them, its everywhere & everything, like you said.
On Friday, my sister sent me a text asking if one of our pregnant friends could borrow my baby name book. She's like 6 months preggo w/ her 2nd (1st is one yr old). It felt like "hey infertile miscarriage chick has a book & she obviously isn’t using it"! I was so mad. I told them no, and the book cost less than $10 bucks & to go buy one.
On Friday, my sister sent me a text asking if one of our pregnant friends could borrow my baby name book. She's like 6 months preggo w/ her 2nd (1st is one yr old). It felt like "hey infertile miscarriage chick has a book & she obviously isn’t using it"! I was so mad. I told them no, and the book cost less than $10 bucks & to go buy one.
So my father-in-law is here visiting and I'm sitting in the living room with my DH and him watching the news and he's like Oh is that anchor pregnant. WTF. He's been here for two days and this is the 2nd pregnancy comment he's made. I HATE EVERYONE! Some people are so freakin ignorant it is not even funny.
Thanks Girls! It's always something, isn't it? Every time I turn around there's another person making idiotic comments. How long is your FIL staying? My in-laws have said some pretty stupid things to me too. They had 5 kids one after the other, and just can't understand what it means to have fertility problems. I know they think that I've blown everything out of proportion. When I told my MIL that we were looking into IVF, she was blown away & can't believe it's needed. I said something like 'I'm sure it will work for us one way or another', and she said 'maybe, maybe not. If it doesn't, it's ok because you have a nice life already.' WTF?!
Amanda, I hope your FIL behaves himself for the rest of his visit. You don't need that BS!
Amanda, I hope your FIL behaves himself for the rest of his visit. You don't need that BS!
Hi Kristi, Any sign of a baby this month? When was your IUI? Merry Christmas. I'm thinking about you hun! Thanks for all your kind words to help me get through this month. I'm in my fertile stage now and getting ready for the long 2ww! I think it will have a good outcome this month. I know God is on my side. Keep the faith my dear!
I know what you mean. I will be really anxious when I get my BFP. Have u tested? I'm so happy for you if you did get a BFP! Try not to think about the negative. Hang in there. Not many people come on my page, so it won't be all over the site. I hope you are and if you are I'm sending tons of sticky glue!
I got a BFP. Took 3 different tests, all positive. I'm only 9dpiui. I am definitely trying to have positive thoughts and telling myself it will stick. In fact, I usually tend to be negative, but I tried to change my thoughts this cycle (like I was saying in some of the posts above), and have been telling myself 'I'm pregnant' all cycle, like a mantra. I'll try anything at this point :) I'm excited, just cautious and don't want to jump the gun at 9dpiui, you know?
And of course, that's the whole point of being on this site is to share these things. Cuz obviously I'm not telling anyone else yet.
And of course, that's the whole point of being on this site is to share these things. Cuz obviously I'm not telling anyone else yet.
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December 11, 2008